In another respect, I will admit to a certain amount of sexual excitement from the whole idea.Ĭastration is a time-honored tradition. One of the reasons why I am doing this is to help other guys avoid the problems. He also acts as a broker between cutters and potential cuttees, and less frequently performs the surgery himself. In the past four years, he's counseled some 4000 men. But he's a legendary figure in the eunuch subculture, where he acts as a kind of den mother for the genitally obsessed, someone a man can turn to when he decides the cojones need to go. After decades of obsessing over his balls and a botched attempt at cutting them off that could have killed him, he was finally castrated in 1994.įor legal reasons Gelding, 54 years old, didn't want his real name used for this story. Gelding is a cutter, which in body-modification circles means he castrates other men. Over the years his obsession blossomed into a strange, quite illegal avocation. Gelding was enthralled by the idea that another person could so casually bring him to his knees. He said, You bump into me again and I'm going to crush them.'The sensation was excruciating, degrading - and delicious. He reached back very calmly, grabbed my balls in my pants, and squeezed them, Gelding recalls. The bus hit a bump in the road, and he accidentally knocked into the boy in front of him. It was crowded and there was no place to sit, so he stood. It was more than 40 years ago now, but Gelding has no trouble recalling the day his life took a very odd turn.